Today's the Day!!

I love weddings!  The excitement.  The planning.  The details.  The anticipation of walking down the aisle and seeing your love at the end.  Walking slowly for everyone to see you and soak in, but wishing you could run.  The smiles through all of the tears of happiness.  Saying "I Do."  It's such a special day, one that I love to relive in my mind, through pictures, and watching the videos with my family. 

On that day we see nothing but HOPE, Golden Days, and Silver lined clouds.  Gum drops fall from the sky and everything is sure to be candy coated.  We know there will be days of trials, heart aches at times, sickness, and lack of money; but we push it all aside and see only golden streets of blissfulness. 

Ten years later........to the day, and really almost the time.

I'm sitting here in bed with my special someone...................................  :)


My Junebug is beside me, sick.  We had a long night last night.  Throw up on the couch, floor, and car this morning (thankfully I was prepared with a bowl).  Fever of 103.3, it might have reached 104, I can't remember.  The day I had planned to the T for my 10th anniversary. 
I knew my husband would be out of town, that's not a problem.  I would've loved to have had him here; but I had planned a whole day for myself and a girlfriend.  We were going to have lunch and shop.  I don't do that normally, and thought it would be nice.  I'm a little bummed, to be honest; but reality........I don't mind at all.

My Junebug doesn't want me to leave his side.  He just ate for the first time today and is starting to perk up.  There's nothing like someone wanting you, even if they're sick; especially when it's your kids.  If you would've asked me this time yesterday, I could've told you that when I walked in the room he would tell me to leave.  He would cry for Daddy, and not want me at all.  It's heart breaking, and it hurts.  But what hurts more, is seeing them in pain.  Even when they are in 3rd grade, they still can't put into words what they feel; they can only act out just like they did when they were babies.

You know, if we knew the hard times that lay ahead for us in marriage; how many of us would take the plunge?  How many of us would opt for running instead?  It's not being naive, when all you see is roses on your wedding day, I think it's a protection.  If you knew all that's ahead, you wouldn't jump into the BEST thing that could ever happen to you in life!!  You wouldn't jump into having a Best friend for LIFE, or being a MOM!

I love being a Mom, even on days when they don't want you there.  You know why?  Because when they're asleep, they always look like your baby again, and if you curl up with them, they will always cuddle with you.  There's nothing like that in the world. 

So, do I wish my day were different today?  Yes, I wish my Junebug wasn't sick and at school and able to go to football tonight.  As for all the other stuff, NO.  I'm perfectly happy laying in bed next to my Junebug.  It's not glamorous today.  I'm not treating myself, but I'm treating my family to memories.  That's better than new clothes. 

To my boys:
I thank God every day for you both.  There is nothing I like more than your kisses and hugs.  Even when you fight, it brings a little laughter deep down.  You're mine and your daddy's.  We are a family.  You are everything I could ever wish and hope for.  I LOVE YOU!!  Today, I married your daddy 10 years ago.  It was such a special day, with so many memories.  Some sweet, a lot of them laughable.  Here we are 10 years later, and today I can say that you both have given me memories.  Some sweet, a lot of them laughable, all of them unforgettable! 

To my husband:
I am lucky to have found you.  I'm glad we can still make each other laugh, even if most of it is because of my dorkiness; at least we can laugh.  Thank you for our wonderful family.  I appreciate the way you make things important, and the traditions you have started.  Like our yearly coast trip, Spring break, and sports.  They're all memories that will last a lifetime.  I love you with everything I have.  You had me two weeks into dating, and you'll have me for the rest of your life.  You're my best friend, my husband, my love.  I love you.